Archive for April, 2011

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A Day of Photos and Tears

April 19, 2011

I was so nervous this past week about the pictures from the photo shoot being a disaster, and imagining I would really hate them. I was awaiting the tears this morning, and sure enough, by the afternoon, they arrived.

They, of course, could be worse, but they’re definitely not my favourite. I am so critical of myself, and I feel the downward spiral coming on; I just sit here and wonder why on earth I entered, why did I think I could do this? I’m not a model, I don’t know what I’m doing, and everyone else will know that and vote for someone else.
I was very sad to see that my scar (which it was suggested I put no make-up on) was removed via photo shop in some of the pictures, but not in others; a strange thing to do.
It’s a horrible scar down my left arm, and it has taken me years to come to terms with – but I decided to be brave, and bare it to the world in the photos. It’s a part of me – you wouldn’t photo shop out someone’s birth mark, or dimples…would you? Maybe they would, I’m not a professional model, so I don’t know. It was very hard to look at these photos, and know someone had chosen to alter me by removing my scar, but not push that little squidge of fat back in (caused by the side of my bra) – which frankly, I would have much preferred.

Other than the (in my opinion, just on my figure) unflattering bra I am wearing (which by the way, is the very pretty Lottie bra, and would look fab on a bigger breasted girl), I did very much like the photo where I am laughing. I can’t remember what it was, but I think Hannah made me laugh very loud, and a picture was taken just at that moment. It’s so natural, and typical me to be laughing my head off – so I felt it really captured my personality just in that moment.

I’m trying to be honest, and let my feelings out; it has just been one of those days. This year, it’s possible to see which people have voted for you for Star in a Bra. That also means that we can see which friends have voted (which sadly can generate a number of hurt feelings within groups).

As someone who has suffered with self-confidence issues, and insecurity, I don’t really feel it’s healthy for me to hang on to all these negative thoughts. I think it’s important I say these things, in order to move forward. The most wonderful and important thing that has come out of this competition for me, are some really quite incredibly amazing friends. While all the girls do seem lovely, there are three particular girls I have gotten to know so well, and been so close with; I honestly think the world of them – Georgina Horne, Lizzie Haines, and Astrid Lopez. I couldn’t have done this without them, they are truly fabulous women. If you don’t decide to vote for me, then please consider voting for one of them.

Also, here is the video, so you can have a more personal look at all the lovely contestants.
Star in a Bra 2011

Love

Sophia xxx

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Curvy Kate Photoshoot – What a Day

April 13, 2011

I did plan to write something about the photo shoot a little sooner, but I’ve been catching up with college work, and regular work since Monday, and haven’t really had a free moment until now.

I think it’s safe to say, that the photo shoot on Monday was an INCREDIBLE day. I was so nervous, and especially about walking around in my undies in front of everyone; 10 minutes in and I was loving it. We had our hair and make-up done, there were cakes and sandwiches, and lots of gorgeous underwear for us to try on – we were thoroughly pampered, and it was wonderful.

I was only with four of the other top 10 girls, but they certainly were a lovely four. Georgina, Lizzie, Hannah and Jordan, what a sweet bunch. I don’t know if it’s a curvy self-conscious thing, a non-model thing, or just luck; but I’m so happy to have such fabulous contestants alongside me in the competition. We spent a good deal of time jumping on the trampoline; the adrenaline was flying high!

Being first to pose for the pictures, I was very nervous, and probably quite stiff to begin with. I managed to loosen up a bit, but I’m not convinced it’ll show through in the photos.
However, I am very critical of myself (something I’m working on toning down) so maybe they did come out OK. Unfortunately I’ll have to wait until next Tuesday the 19th to see the photos – which is also the same time it goes live to the public; no previews for us!!!

The Curvy Kate team were so friendly and so encouraging. I felt so comfortable around them, and they really made it easy for us to adjust to experiencing the modelling world; I was actually really sad to leave at the end of the day, and would’ve happily done it all over again.


Now, a few days rest, then the campaigning begins again on the 19th – I will need all you lovely people to help me get votes, so please bear with the inevitable spamming begging for more votes. Apologies in advance!

 

 

 

 

Love

Sophia xxx

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Star in a Bra – Top Ten

April 6, 2011

I was absolutely shocked today to discover I’d made it through to the top 10 finalists of Curvy Kate’s Star in a Bra, along with many of the other lovely girls – including the ones from our ‘Proud and Curvy’ facebook group!
I am fairly lost for words, there were so many gorgeous girls that entered, and it’s a shame only 10 could be picked – they are all winners really (…yes I know that sounds ridiculously cheesy).

Anyway, now somehow I have to contain my nerves for the photo shoot that will take place next Monday the 11th (for me) and Tuesday the 12th.
I will be baring myself, yet again in my undies – only this time in real life! Hair and make-up will be done for us, and I suspect some behind the scenes filming, so lots to think about. I feel like I should be doing something…grooming…working out…hmm. I think I’ll have to go on my EA Active Wii game a bit more often this week πŸ˜›

One last thing to share; last night (before voting closed) I discovered a wonderfully lovely and extremely flattering article written about me online. As usual, I am fairly lost for words on how to thank this person, but I really do appreciate the support – so much. It obviously helped me get through to the top 10, which I am so excited (nervous) about, and frankly, still a little surprised! πŸ™‚

Wishing on a Star in a Bra

Thanks so much for the support everyone!!

Love

Sophia xxx

P.s. For more updates on the competition, follow me on Twitter: @sophjenner